IN BETWEEN NEED & WANT
by soegianto on Feb.22, 2005, under Life, Romance, Thoughts
Ini adalah sebuah percakapan antara saya dan diri saya? Bingung?… beberapa theolog membagi antara tubuh, jiwa dan roh, beberapa psikolog membagi antara logika dan perasaan… Beberapa filsuf membagi hal tersebut sebagai pertentangan antara diri dan jiwa… bagi saya ini adalah sebuah pergumulan antara pikiran dan hati untuk melihat lebih dari sekadar apa yang saya inginkan… Untuk itupun saya bergumul… menuliskannya diatas kertas
ME :
It is not what you want? It is what you need?
It is not what you want? It is what you need?
It is not what you want? It is what you need?
It is not what you want? It is what you need?
It is not what you want? It is what you need?
SOEGI :
duh..kata2 itu membuat g pusink!? ok thanks, to Mr. Riko (Soul Mate Session at KP) bikin g GERAH…
ME:
You never understand His will if you don’t put your Will unto His Will
SOEGI :
ini lagi.. tapi bukankah aku sudah taruh sesuai dengan (lingkup) kehendakNya, setidaknya saya berusaha…
ME:
You can’t force “love” grow…
SOEGI :
I don’t, I cultivate it, with tender, gentle & care… but the problem it’s not my garden… it’s her garden… i do have done my part, it’s her part!
ME:
When you let her go, you’ll find the one
SOEGI :
I can’t & I won’t, I might be foolish, stubborn… may be it’s should be ended… it’s more than 3 years… can I wait…?! should i wait
It is not what I want? It is what I need?
I really want you, till i feel it as a needed… (ugh.. that’s danger isn’t it)
ME:
God just doesn’t want you put any idol in front of HIM,
SOEGI :
I do feel so… but why I got this feelings “Love”… her more than YOU?? why?? ehmm… ok, I know, it’s just like money that You give for our good, but when i can’t cultivate it, it might became idol fo me?? 
ME:
Open your heart, and open your eyes, ends your hope, by seeing the chance… to cultivate and to grow
SOEGI :
I do see, I do feel the warms of her, It’s make me think that i just fall in again… but I am afraid to hurt her, even if I have to start a relationship… I must make sure that it’s only her, and because of her… not because I can’t get the others… ^^
ME:
so?
SOEGI :
……. I just hope and could only wait…
